blogging

Well...the year is almost over and it's been fun. It was my first time ever to have my own blog and boy oh boy has it been an experience. At first i really didn't like being tied down to just one topic to write about just because of the fact that i would spend more time thinking about what i was going to say to get my word requirement then actually enjoying the experience of blogging itself. Once the new term rolled around and we kind of got a new chance to start over with our blog things turned around for me. Before i really didn't enjoy blogging, but then i realized that so much goes on in my life that i can write and vent about that it really opened my eyes to the opportunity i had. At some points in my time of blogging I used it as a gateway to complain and vent about what i needed to say rather than taking it out on someone else. I really enjoyed the things i wrote about and it was something i might see myself continuing now that the term is done and our blogs are over. The one thing I would say was least enjoyable about blogging was the word requirement. I understand that as a teacher it is hard to get all the students to do what they are supposed to do without a limit set, but i think it would be a lot more enjoyable for me in the future to not worry about how long my post needs to be, but saying everything i need to say and being okay if its not long enough or if it is too long.

soooo many overwhelming things

So....here's the story. My chemistry teacher has been making me sooo mad lately. It is to the point where I just want to yell and scream at him the next time he does something that upsets me. I realize that some of the time you don't mesh well with your class and that's completely understandable. But when it gets to the point where the teacher is going to other teachers during the time he is supposed to be teaching us and complaining about how we don't pay attention or do well on the tests? Really? Come on now. I don't want to make this sound like our class is perfect with no troubles, but I do pretty well in that class and when I don't understand something and want to ask a question I get ignored. I have literally watched him see that my hand is up and ignore until someone else has a question, then watch him walk to the other end of the room, help them and then continue to help all the people that had their hand up after I had been waiting. Once waiting to the point where my hand is barely raised because it is so tired of being raised my teacher will walk over to help me and as I ask the question he starts yelling at me for not paying attention or I am the one that needs to figure out my own problem because i don't understand something. REALLY?!!? I'm at the point of just freaking out on him in front of the whole class. UGH I hate being mad.

summer conditioning

School officially gets out on the eleventh of June and the ACT is on the thirteenth. After those two days you think I would be free to enjoy the rest of my summer and have fun spending time in the sun with my friends doing whatever my heart desires right?.....WRONG. Summer conditioning for volleyball starts on the 22nd of June and it goes all the way up until camp week. You'd think that I would be excited for camp week then, but I'm not. Camp week is just a big giant week of hard core conditioning before two-a-days start the week after that. As much as I absolutely love to play volleyball I can't say I'm looking forward to the long hours, hard work, and sprinting that comes with it.


Most of the time conditioning is at seven in the morning but this year it starts at seven thirty :) yayy. I pretty much drag myself out of my bed throw on clothes that most of the time doesn't match along with some socks that also never match a pair of shoes and a water bottle and leave. After conditioning is over I feel like I'm going to die. A lot of the time it takes a lot of motivation for me to go and last year I think I went like 5 times out of the entire summer. But then I realized how much summer strength training actually helps your performance. So as much as I don't look forward to putting in the hard work and just wanting to skate by, I really am excited to start working again for the fall season and getting my legs back underneath me and my skills back. By the end of the summer I will be so happy with my accomplishments.

famillyyyyyy

I love my family so much. My brother came home for the weekend. It is now his last week of his freshman year in college...well he is a semester ahead so i guess he kinda finished that a while ago but anyway he is home now. My cousin got married not to long ago and believe it or not no one in my family expected him to ever get married and his new wife is so perfect for him, I can't be happier for them. Since they got married my uncle from out of town came back for a visit. Just so you know most of my entire family lives in the surrounding area only like five to twenty minutes to drive to my house so when family from out of town comes in we try to get together and catch up. Well since people always come over to my house it was yet another frantic clean up throughout my household since my parents got the wise idea to cook up this get together the day before it actually happened. Well it was really fun once everyone got there but i didn't really have the chance to talk all that much due to the fact that it was a school night and i had homework and was way too tired to actually socialize. I felt kind of bad for not spending time with my family, but it's not like we don't get together at least once every two months or every major holiday so i'll have time to redeem myself.

STUPIDDDD DRIVERS!!!

Wow. Okay so I know that I'm only sixteen and have only had my license for about ten months now, but I don't think that means I am any worse at knowing the rules of the road compared to adults, especially middle aged guys driving white cars down the street. The reason I say that is because yesterday I was driving down the road going to pick up my friend at school and my other friend had been at my house so we left at the same time and I had been following her. As I'm driving down the two lane road I am staying very aware of my surroundings. I see a man in a white car to my left and as I look over at him he looks very annoyed with the classic "stupid teenage girl drivers not going the speed limit" look. As I'm trying to pass this guy I realize he is speeding up and I then look ahead to notice my friend coming up fast on a van in our lane. She turns on her signal and changes lane as this man to the left is speeding up to be a jerk and not let her in. She gets around him and he swerves into the oncoming traffic and gets beside her and swerves back toward her forcing her to change back into her original lane. Well me sitting back watching all this happen, I was absolutely LIVID that a man in his late forties would do such a thing and put not only his life at risk but the lives of me, my friend, and the oncoming cars when he went in their lane. There was NO WAY I was going to let this guy get away with this without even getting honked at. I changed lanes and got right behind him honking my horn for quite some time. As I change lanes to pass him he glares at ME. Shouldn't it be the other way around? Man I was so angry and it really makes me wonder 'Are adults any better at driving then I am?'

WoOoRrRrKkKkkK :)

Red Robin. Home of the smiling burger. Well not that I care all that much about it, but it's where I work. I just started as a hostess and it's a lot harder than I actually thought it would be. Oh well, I guess it's worth the eight bucks an hour because I need the money. Red Robin is known for their gourmet burgers mainly, but they have so many things there that are good. They have great shakes and wonderful smoothies and I'm definitely enjoying this whole employee discount thing. Last Sunday was the day of truth, it was my certification. Luckily I passed, and I'm so excited. One of the things I'm really not looking forward to that much is being 'the bird'; the giant mascot that walks around and gives high fives to the little kids. I don't want to be in a bird costume, I think I may just tell them I am claustrophobic or deathly afraid of those creepy things; which in this case is completely true because those things scare the crap out of me. Well I guess I can't complain all that much since they did hire me and I am making money and that was my main concern to begin with. All I have to do now is do a good job, not get fired, and make customers happy. I also have to remember that THE CUSTOMER IS ALWAYS RIGHT!! :)

summer

Summer is almost here and I have to say I'm pretty excited about it. It's the first summer where I will have some freedom. In previous summers I haven't been able to drive and I always had to ask my parents for rides or someone else. Now, I have a car and just recently got a job, so I'll have money of my own that I earned. Not only do I have more freedom, my friends do as well and it is going to be such a fun time. This summer is gunna make or break me as far as my trust with my parents goes. As of right now my parents don't trust me which is confusing to me because I have never once given them a reason to doubt me. I tell them where I'm going to be, who I'm going to be with, and when I will be home and i never miss curfew. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to prove it to them...not like I don't every day I do something but whatever; not much I can do about that. Along with trust, summer is always the big opportunity to find love. I'm not saying I'm going to fall in love with someone, all I'm saying is is that it is such a good opportunity to hang with them outside of school and you have so much more time. Other than work I have nothing huge planned because our family hasn't gone on a vacation in over two years so I don't really see it happening any time soon...at least not this year.

groin up

Do you remember ever going to a family or friend get together with your parents, and you see people who say "Oh my, how you've grown, I remember when you were just this big." Well if not I probably make up for you. It happens to me all the time and it gets so old. Don't adults realize that eventually the little kid that you were was going to grow up? Well it's junior year and I got my first real job...Red Robin. I don't know whether to be excited about having a job and making money or to hate the fact that it's a restaurant and I told myself I would never work there. Well over all I'm excited to start work because it's money and I have a feeling I'm going to need a lot of it for this upcoming summer. Also I feel like having a good job is preparing me for what's to come. College is also a thing I need to start thinking about and something that I get asked about a lot. I'm not totally sure about where I want to go, but i think I have a pretty good idea. I just hope that idea is something I can follow through on and turns into something promising for my future.

seasons of LOVE

High school relationships....Where should I start? Well I'll just say what's on my mind I guess. They all start out amazing and better than you could ever believe but somehow they all end. Is it because we are too immature to handle them? Who knows? Recently in my high school I have seen a lot of relationship issues. Some partners are unfaithful and cheat and some break up because someone is accused of doing something actually didn't. About a week ago I saw a couple who have been dating for about three or four years break up. It so weird to not see them together. It makes me think of my relationships with guys and makes me wonder if I really want to pursue anything with the guy I've been talking to for about a month. After being hurt over and over again it's so hard to place trust in a new guy. I mean of course they all promise not to hurt you and to be the "best boy ever"....for any girl to ever read this, that's a LIE. I really am torn between really starting to like this guy and protecting my heart from it getting hurt and abused again. Also I don't want to deal with the drama of rumors. Yesterday I had four people come up to me in a matter of a half an hour and asked me about something that was completely untrue and they all believed it was true. I don't think I can handle the drama of dating someone and people trying to make themselves feel important and "in the loop" by going around saying stuff that ruins my reputation in the end. Ugh. I can't wait to graduate next year. It can't come fast enough. I guess for now I'll put up with all the drama and try to keep a low profile. I just hope that my classmates can have the maturity to not always believe what the grapevine tells them.

Easter sunday was a blast :]

Oh man. I ALWAYS look forward to holidays. Not only is it an opportunity to sometimes get out of school, but more importantly it is the chance for me to spend time with my entire family. My mom's side of the family is HUGE and they all live in Cedar Rapids or towns surrounding it. Every time there is a holiday my whole family comes over to my house. The few days before this event it is kind of stressful at my house because my mom and dad run around the house cleaning and telling me to help them clean. I hate cleaning and so cleaning my whole house in one day is not something I necessarily enjoy doing. Most of the time I try to get out of the house as much as possible hoping to return and have the house cleaned and ready to go, that never happens. Up until about twenty minutes before it is time for people to start arriving my parents work diliigently on perfecting everything imaginable in my house. BUT once my family gets there and brings in the food and fun everything mellows down and it becomes a time to catch up and relax. For me I am right in between the two generations so I am younger than the adults but older than the young kids. Most of the time I find myself running around with all the little kids and when that gets old I come upstairs, eat and mingle with the adults. It is a great time and I had a wonderful Easter Sunday.

Good Friday

Due to the massive amounts of school we missed for the terrible weather we have here in the Midwest all of our scheduled half days were changed back into full days. And when I say all I really do mean all of them. Even the one we were supposed to have on Good Friday was changed. I know that for some people Good Friday doesn't mean anything but others it does. Why would you change the date of Good Friday when a half day already counts as a full day anyways? I mean I understand changing some half days into full days so teachers have the opportunity to catch up and teach more than they would on a half day but can't they make some exceptions? It is a holiday. Why do you get so long of a break for Christmas or even for spring but not for a religious holiday? I don't know I guess it's just kind of frustrating to be stuck in school now that we have to make up for all the days we should've been at school in the winter. Oh well not much I can do now, Good Friday has come and gone and I was in school for most of the day. I guess we will wait until next year and see what happens. Let's hope we see a better result then.

suicide

I don't know about you but I don't think I could ever even attempt to kill myself. Today in my AP Psych class we had to do a whole assignment about suicide and simply reading the facts shocked me. I was surprised to learn that the percentage of teenagers now that kill themselves apposed to some years ago has almost equaled the amount of adults. Also I was very surprised to learn that one of the main reasons for a teenager to take there own life is due to a breakup with a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Are you kidding me?! That just sounds too crazy to even believe. I mean I know that there is a lot of drama and hard times to deal with in high school and even in a break up with someone you care about but killing yourself? To me it seems like such a "quick fix" that teenagers are attracted to. If you ask me I think that it could quite possibly be one of the most selfish things someone could ever do; almost like a big slap in the face to your friends and family, the people who truly care about you. I guess I just have such a strong opinion on this topic and I'm kind of taking my feelings out on this post but man it's so frustrating to hear about people even in my school killing them selves. It may be the easy way out for them but they aren't the ones that have to deal with it in the end.

f***mylife.com

Due to the excessive amounts of students in our high school visiting fmylife.com instead of focusing on there studies in the computer lab; it is now blocked by the school to visit. I must admit that I was one of those students who wasted away the precious time given to me by reading about hilarious stories of bad things happening to good people. But can you really blame me? I mean if you read these stories and think of the horrible things they must have been dealing with you can't help but to get sucked in and want to read more and more. I will admit I have had some pretty bad days when all I want to do is go home and cry and eat some ice cream, but once you visit that website and read some of the posts you immediately feel better about yourself. Although then one starts to wonder if reading about other people's embarrassment to make you feel better is the right thing to do. However; I don't think people would mind others laughing at them if they were the one who posted the story in the first place. All i know is that one of these days when something truly terrible and embarrassing happens to me, I can only hope that it is FML worthy. This website is no longer just a website its turning in to a dependence for teenagers and has drastically affected the language we use with our friends today. Cya :)

why are things that are important to me not my decision?!

I never really realized the amount of stress school puts on you. School is one of those things that you have to go to until you're eighteen and it's not your choice whether you want to be there or not. Even if you do want to stay home from school, unless your parents are cool with it and excuse you, you HAVE to go. It's not like you can drop out if you wanted to cause the law requires you to go. What's up with that? I'm not saying if it was my choice I would drop out, but why can't I make decisions for myself sometime? No matter how much I want to do something if it's not cool with my parents it doesn't fly. I have mixed emotions about this. Sometimes I respect the opinion my parents have on topics but when I disagree respectfully I get told I am wrong. Just because I am younger doesn't mean I am completely incapable of making my own decisions. Ugh there are so many moments when I wish so badly that I could choose what I wanted to do but I guess at the end of the day I do respect the opinions of others, and I like knowing that I have all of my elders looking out for me and making sure I behave myself and am not just up to no good.

Changes are always for the better right?

I think I have hit senioritis and I am only a junior. GREAT!! I have always been told "you are a straight A student if you learn to apply yourself, I know you have it in you", but do I? Do I honestly believe them when they say that? Yeah, I do. It's so easy to say you want to try harder but to actually do it is a completely different challenge. I am not a bad kid and I could be a very successful student if I tried. Today it REALLY truly hit me that my teachers have started to give up on me. I had a paper due yesterday during my third hour. Being the awesome student I am woke up at five that morning to type it. I was actually surprised that I could wake myself up and got it done. I was shocked. Anyways, I went to print it out and lucky me the one time I do an assignment on time my printer breaks on me and I'm already skipping my zero hour class just to get this assignment done. So I grab my flash drive thinking 'oh, no biggie I'll just print it at school.' I put my paper on the drive and realize I woke up and did my paper and didn't do anything with my appearance and I'm late.



Through the hustle and bustle of trying to look good for another Wednesday at school, I left my flash drive with the paper I had just written on my dresser....of course. I didn't realize this until I went to print out my paper which by that time was first hour so there was no way I could go home and get it. Well third hour roles around and there isn't much I can do but to tell my teacher the truth. So I did and all I get in return is getting made fun of in front of my whole class about how I was lying about having my paper done and how I didn't actually do it. As I sit there and here my teacher say "You didn't have it done" "yes I did" "no you didn't have your paper done, I don't believe you" I'm almost in tears at this point. I held them back in fear of what my class might say if I did in fact start crying. But I have never felt so disrespected by a teacher in my entire life. It was rude. It is one thing to not believe I had it done because if I were in his position I might not believe myself either, but to say it in front of the whole class and watch them smile as you're on the brink of tears over a paper you did in fact do was ridiculous. At that very moment I realized that teachers are beginning to doubt me. What I mean is that my teachers up until this point have always given me the benefit of the doubt on thing, but now they are starting to see a trend and how lazy I really am. I think I can honestly say that today was my breaking point. Now I am truly ready to prove everyone wrong. I'm ready to show that third hour teacher that I do my work and that I do it well. I'm tired of being looked at as the let down, the slacker, the procrastinator, or the lazy one. I'm ready to make a change in my academics. So here starts the new me and yes this wall post was submitted on time :)

Volleyball Regionals

While spring break is ending so is my club season. The regional volleyball tournament took place in Des Moines this weekend and it was the final tournament after a long season of hard work. As for my team, the Rapid Spikers, we did not show up to play...AT ALL! we came out strong in our first game on the first and second day but from then on we let other teams walk all over us. It is very disappointing to try so hard but watch your team crumble. I guess there is not much I can do now except for stepping up my game for the upcoming fall season :]

Spring Break Oh Nine

Spring break is a time for students of all ages to enjoy a week off, relax, and have fun with friends and family. Often times students go out of town to someplace really nice and come back with an awesome tan. However; I am not one of those students, I sat at home all break and had an awesome time doing that. I just hope that now going back to school will be easy. It is so hard to come back from such a long break and get back into the swing of things, but i guess we will see how things go....wish me luck

texting:]

Wow! I am now more than two and two thirds done with high school. It's a little scary to say the least. High school is all about grades right? WRONG!! Well I guess it depends on who you are asking. I mean ask any parent and they will tell you that this is in fact the truth; however ask any high school student and they will tell you this is the furthest thing from the truth. With so many great things to do with your time once you can drive and all who needs homework? I'm not speaking for everyone here but I'm fairly sure that a good majority of teenagers would much rather be doing ANYTHING but school work. The new popular thing for teenagers to do is to text message, and man oh man do I have an addiction to this one. Although, my parents have recently found out how to deal with bad grades, they take my texting away. Ughh. LAME is all I have to say. That is how you make plans and how you talk to your friends; taking it away is like taking away an entire high school student's social life in one phone call to the cell phone company.

a change in direction

Hey everyone! I know my original idea for this blog was to be about volleyball, but that became such broad topic to talk about that I think I'm going to take this blog in another direction. I just deleted all my posts from my last term of blogging (there weren't many), but I did. My hope for this term of blogging is to be on time and regular with my posts and also make them relevant topics to my life and the things that impact me. I don't necessarily have a "main topic" but I guess it all has to do with the things going on I'm my life right now. It may be interesting for some and really boring for others, but it's going to be a lot more fun and interesting for me so that's all that really matters I guess. I think by taking this blog in another direction I will have alot more to say and a many more opinions on a variety of topics. Just thought I would let everyone know what I was doing.

A new term brings new topics

Oh the joys of high school. As a junior entering my third term of the year i start to look back; the good, the bad....the ugly? It never really hit me how much people influence your life, how you see yourself, how you act, how you treat others; every single part of your life is affected or affects some one else. High school is supposed to be your 'best times' or so your parents tell you and we should 'live them to the fullest'. But in reality high school is hands down one of the hardest things I've ever had to deal with. Everything that you have to deal with here forces you to make life decisions and if you make the wrong decision you can potentially ruin your whole reputation that you have worked this long to perfect. Things in high school get around so fast and are blown so far out of proportion there is nothing you can do to stop it. From all the cheating lies and deception of your boyfriend/girlfriend, friends, and even people you don't even know; it's like walking through a field with hidden landmines. If you mess up and someone hears about it that landmine explodes and you're now filled with a world of drama. I am not saying that I don't get caught up in the drama and mistakes of others, but I sure do hope that I never have to face that drama myself. I guess what I'm trying to say to anyone dealing with the "joys of high school" to watch your back and be very careful who you trust because that may be your downfall in the long run.

blogging :]

Blogging, a new technology craze for many people. How do i feel about it? I have mixed emotions on the topic.

For most people it is easy to go to google type in "____ blog" and come up with many many blogs on the specific topic, but actually being the person writing the blog is completely different. I never really realized how much time and effort is put into a well thought out blog. It isvery hard to write a long blog and i can look at some that are many many more words then i could ever think of typing. I enjoy blogging; however it takes a lot more effort than i expected when i started typing. In my opinion, blogging is more of a hobby and it needs to be something you enjoy doing. I think it would be more fun for me if i wasn't pressured on deadlines of posts, and it could be something i just do for fun. I think that i am the kind of person who is very shy about writing and the things i say so opening up a blog for anyone to see and comment on is something that would take a lot of nerve. With that said i have a lot of respect for the people out there that blog as a hobby and can take criticism when it is given. I don't think I could ever do something like that.

Over all i enjoyed blogging, but it is very hard to write so many. I run out of ideas.