WoOoRrRrKkKkkK :)

Red Robin. Home of the smiling burger. Well not that I care all that much about it, but it's where I work. I just started as a hostess and it's a lot harder than I actually thought it would be. Oh well, I guess it's worth the eight bucks an hour because I need the money. Red Robin is known for their gourmet burgers mainly, but they have so many things there that are good. They have great shakes and wonderful smoothies and I'm definitely enjoying this whole employee discount thing. Last Sunday was the day of truth, it was my certification. Luckily I passed, and I'm so excited. One of the things I'm really not looking forward to that much is being 'the bird'; the giant mascot that walks around and gives high fives to the little kids. I don't want to be in a bird costume, I think I may just tell them I am claustrophobic or deathly afraid of those creepy things; which in this case is completely true because those things scare the crap out of me. Well I guess I can't complain all that much since they did hire me and I am making money and that was my main concern to begin with. All I have to do now is do a good job, not get fired, and make customers happy. I also have to remember that THE CUSTOMER IS ALWAYS RIGHT!! :)

summer

Summer is almost here and I have to say I'm pretty excited about it. It's the first summer where I will have some freedom. In previous summers I haven't been able to drive and I always had to ask my parents for rides or someone else. Now, I have a car and just recently got a job, so I'll have money of my own that I earned. Not only do I have more freedom, my friends do as well and it is going to be such a fun time. This summer is gunna make or break me as far as my trust with my parents goes. As of right now my parents don't trust me which is confusing to me because I have never once given them a reason to doubt me. I tell them where I'm going to be, who I'm going to be with, and when I will be home and i never miss curfew. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to prove it to them...not like I don't every day I do something but whatever; not much I can do about that. Along with trust, summer is always the big opportunity to find love. I'm not saying I'm going to fall in love with someone, all I'm saying is is that it is such a good opportunity to hang with them outside of school and you have so much more time. Other than work I have nothing huge planned because our family hasn't gone on a vacation in over two years so I don't really see it happening any time soon...at least not this year.

groin up

Do you remember ever going to a family or friend get together with your parents, and you see people who say "Oh my, how you've grown, I remember when you were just this big." Well if not I probably make up for you. It happens to me all the time and it gets so old. Don't adults realize that eventually the little kid that you were was going to grow up? Well it's junior year and I got my first real job...Red Robin. I don't know whether to be excited about having a job and making money or to hate the fact that it's a restaurant and I told myself I would never work there. Well over all I'm excited to start work because it's money and I have a feeling I'm going to need a lot of it for this upcoming summer. Also I feel like having a good job is preparing me for what's to come. College is also a thing I need to start thinking about and something that I get asked about a lot. I'm not totally sure about where I want to go, but i think I have a pretty good idea. I just hope that idea is something I can follow through on and turns into something promising for my future.

seasons of LOVE

High school relationships....Where should I start? Well I'll just say what's on my mind I guess. They all start out amazing and better than you could ever believe but somehow they all end. Is it because we are too immature to handle them? Who knows? Recently in my high school I have seen a lot of relationship issues. Some partners are unfaithful and cheat and some break up because someone is accused of doing something actually didn't. About a week ago I saw a couple who have been dating for about three or four years break up. It so weird to not see them together. It makes me think of my relationships with guys and makes me wonder if I really want to pursue anything with the guy I've been talking to for about a month. After being hurt over and over again it's so hard to place trust in a new guy. I mean of course they all promise not to hurt you and to be the "best boy ever"....for any girl to ever read this, that's a LIE. I really am torn between really starting to like this guy and protecting my heart from it getting hurt and abused again. Also I don't want to deal with the drama of rumors. Yesterday I had four people come up to me in a matter of a half an hour and asked me about something that was completely untrue and they all believed it was true. I don't think I can handle the drama of dating someone and people trying to make themselves feel important and "in the loop" by going around saying stuff that ruins my reputation in the end. Ugh. I can't wait to graduate next year. It can't come fast enough. I guess for now I'll put up with all the drama and try to keep a low profile. I just hope that my classmates can have the maturity to not always believe what the grapevine tells them.

Easter sunday was a blast :]

Oh man. I ALWAYS look forward to holidays. Not only is it an opportunity to sometimes get out of school, but more importantly it is the chance for me to spend time with my entire family. My mom's side of the family is HUGE and they all live in Cedar Rapids or towns surrounding it. Every time there is a holiday my whole family comes over to my house. The few days before this event it is kind of stressful at my house because my mom and dad run around the house cleaning and telling me to help them clean. I hate cleaning and so cleaning my whole house in one day is not something I necessarily enjoy doing. Most of the time I try to get out of the house as much as possible hoping to return and have the house cleaned and ready to go, that never happens. Up until about twenty minutes before it is time for people to start arriving my parents work diliigently on perfecting everything imaginable in my house. BUT once my family gets there and brings in the food and fun everything mellows down and it becomes a time to catch up and relax. For me I am right in between the two generations so I am younger than the adults but older than the young kids. Most of the time I find myself running around with all the little kids and when that gets old I come upstairs, eat and mingle with the adults. It is a great time and I had a wonderful Easter Sunday.

Good Friday

Due to the massive amounts of school we missed for the terrible weather we have here in the Midwest all of our scheduled half days were changed back into full days. And when I say all I really do mean all of them. Even the one we were supposed to have on Good Friday was changed. I know that for some people Good Friday doesn't mean anything but others it does. Why would you change the date of Good Friday when a half day already counts as a full day anyways? I mean I understand changing some half days into full days so teachers have the opportunity to catch up and teach more than they would on a half day but can't they make some exceptions? It is a holiday. Why do you get so long of a break for Christmas or even for spring but not for a religious holiday? I don't know I guess it's just kind of frustrating to be stuck in school now that we have to make up for all the days we should've been at school in the winter. Oh well not much I can do now, Good Friday has come and gone and I was in school for most of the day. I guess we will wait until next year and see what happens. Let's hope we see a better result then.

suicide

I don't know about you but I don't think I could ever even attempt to kill myself. Today in my AP Psych class we had to do a whole assignment about suicide and simply reading the facts shocked me. I was surprised to learn that the percentage of teenagers now that kill themselves apposed to some years ago has almost equaled the amount of adults. Also I was very surprised to learn that one of the main reasons for a teenager to take there own life is due to a breakup with a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Are you kidding me?! That just sounds too crazy to even believe. I mean I know that there is a lot of drama and hard times to deal with in high school and even in a break up with someone you care about but killing yourself? To me it seems like such a "quick fix" that teenagers are attracted to. If you ask me I think that it could quite possibly be one of the most selfish things someone could ever do; almost like a big slap in the face to your friends and family, the people who truly care about you. I guess I just have such a strong opinion on this topic and I'm kind of taking my feelings out on this post but man it's so frustrating to hear about people even in my school killing them selves. It may be the easy way out for them but they aren't the ones that have to deal with it in the end.

f***mylife.com

Due to the excessive amounts of students in our high school visiting fmylife.com instead of focusing on there studies in the computer lab; it is now blocked by the school to visit. I must admit that I was one of those students who wasted away the precious time given to me by reading about hilarious stories of bad things happening to good people. But can you really blame me? I mean if you read these stories and think of the horrible things they must have been dealing with you can't help but to get sucked in and want to read more and more. I will admit I have had some pretty bad days when all I want to do is go home and cry and eat some ice cream, but once you visit that website and read some of the posts you immediately feel better about yourself. Although then one starts to wonder if reading about other people's embarrassment to make you feel better is the right thing to do. However; I don't think people would mind others laughing at them if they were the one who posted the story in the first place. All i know is that one of these days when something truly terrible and embarrassing happens to me, I can only hope that it is FML worthy. This website is no longer just a website its turning in to a dependence for teenagers and has drastically affected the language we use with our friends today. Cya :)

why are things that are important to me not my decision?!

I never really realized the amount of stress school puts on you. School is one of those things that you have to go to until you're eighteen and it's not your choice whether you want to be there or not. Even if you do want to stay home from school, unless your parents are cool with it and excuse you, you HAVE to go. It's not like you can drop out if you wanted to cause the law requires you to go. What's up with that? I'm not saying if it was my choice I would drop out, but why can't I make decisions for myself sometime? No matter how much I want to do something if it's not cool with my parents it doesn't fly. I have mixed emotions about this. Sometimes I respect the opinion my parents have on topics but when I disagree respectfully I get told I am wrong. Just because I am younger doesn't mean I am completely incapable of making my own decisions. Ugh there are so many moments when I wish so badly that I could choose what I wanted to do but I guess at the end of the day I do respect the opinions of others, and I like knowing that I have all of my elders looking out for me and making sure I behave myself and am not just up to no good.